I meant to write about this yesterday, but somehow it evolved into a pretty long post about Sharath's DVD. So I'm telling you today anyway. Better late than never.
Big changes are coming ahead in my world. Some of you may already know a little about it from my Down & Out post last year, or maybe I've confided in you a little about what THAT was all about.
Basically... we are leaving Sydney.
As quickly as we've moved, we will be off again within a year of settling here. Kelly's dad has not been well and we've decided that he needs to be with his dad now. There was a bit of a scare over the Christmas hols... Christmas Eve, to be exact. Suffice it to say that I spent that evening scrambling around and calling the airlines to get him on the next available flight back to Cape Town on Christmas Day to be with his dad. (Sorry I didn't share this then, it just didn't seem appropriate to be The Holiday Dampener!)
...which explains why Kelly wasn't in any of the Bali pictures. Anyways, before you get too concerned, I'm happy to report that his dad is doing much better now and is resting at home. But we have both made the decision together to up and move again! At this point, it's a move back to Cape Town indefinitely.
Initially I was upset and in shock at the situation, things just seemed to be happening too quickly! ...but now that I've had some time to process and think about it, I've decided that the only way to deal with this is to be in joyful surrender to the Universe. I'm just rolling with this and I'll see where life takes me in 2010 (please Dear Universe, can I finally go to Mysore this year?)
Do you know why I cried in Savasana last year? ...because as Kelly and I were discussing our options, I realized that one of the main reasons why I would be very sad to leave Sydney would be because I'd be leaving my beautiful teacher (scroll back to start on Page 1 in this pdf) and her beautiful shala.
It seems so trivial to be thinking of this when there are bigger life issues looming over us at the moment, but I suppose that's how big an impact she has made in my life even if she doesn't even know it! Through her, I have learnt so much about myself.
This has also been a big lesson in non-attachment for me in every way. ...Just letting go of fear, anxiety and not being attached to the outcome... Letting go of my attachment to my teacher... Letting go of wanting to know what will happen... Letting go of willing things to happen... and just surrendering to what will be and what it IS.
2010 is my year of Joyful Surrender.
(Thank you Sam, for affirming this suspicion I had!)
Since I officially handed in my resignation on Monday, the first working day of this year, I thought it would be OK to finally share this with you now.
I'm unsure of when I'll finally be leaving here, just have a few more admin things to lock down first... but it'll be some time at the end of January or early February.
OH MAAAAAAAAAAAAN. That's pretty damn SOOOOOON!!
So... Now you can look forward to more new adventures from me. You're welcome to tag along on this Magic Carpet Ride. Just no backseat drivers, please!
Ahoy! Joyful Surrender ahead!