I did it today!
I actually full-on landed on my head, head-butting the floor in dropbacks. In a shala full of people. I think I heard some gasps too.
It's what I've feared all this time, so I'm glad I've got it out the way.
I must've been so pleased with myself that I didn't just do it once either, it happened a couple of times.
Teacher's Assistant came to me at dropbacks today and said "Try some on your own before we do assisted". I was like "Ugh, really? Noooooo." She kinda hovered near me for support (of the cheerleading kind) but I really felt like a kid on the first day of school - clinging on and screaming "Mummy mummy! Don't go!" (Of course this was my internal monologue. On the outside, I was a cool cat).
But then I thought "Screw it. Let's do this". Gotta take those training wheels off at some point, right?
It's that last bit, after your head passes that Limbo-Rock point, y'know, when your torso's kind of "parallel" to the floor. After that point, I feel like I'm dropping into the abyss then everything goes pear-shaped. And my head found the floor before my hands did.
To my (dis)credit, I have done this before - but on my own at home. And I have crash-landed A LOT harder than I did today. So I dunno whether it's coz I was in a room full of other people that I quickly braced myself and ended with a lighter crash, or whether it is a slightly improved dropback coz the crashes were not so hard.
After the first one, I collapsed in a heap and started laughing. On the second go, I dropped on my head, then my arms immediately pulled me back up into a backbend again, and I hauled myself to standing from the backbend. It must've sounded a lot harder than it actually felt, or maybe I have a thick skull, coz this is when the people on either side of me gasped. I felt totally OK though, and my ego wasn't as bruised as I thought it would be in a situation like this.
After practice, I asked my teacher what's happening on that last bit - do I need to engage even more of my legs? (Coz I know have a problem with grounding). And she wisely asked "Well... WHY would you land on your head?"
It took me about a second. "Um... because... my arms aren't there before my head?"
D.U.H. Of course.
So she said "You need to straighten your arms coz your elbows are giving way when you land".
DAMMIT! Yesterday, my elbows were rock-solid concrete and I was afraid I would hyper-extend them while landing and hurt them. Today, they're too jello and I'm hitting my head instead.
I'm beginning to feel like I need to wear a crash helmet AND elbow guards until I get these dropbacks sorted! Grr. I don't mind looking like The Stig from Top Gear. Go on, Lululemon! I'll do product R&D for you!
(Photo credt here)