Our lives were moving in 2 different directions.
But I would've given it all up if I'd had a stronger commitment from him.
So after 5 beautiful years in 3 different countries together, we find ourselves apart.
I have no idea if what I'm doing is the bravest or stupidest thing I've ever done for ME. But... As a wise friend said: If we're not living in the moment and investing everything we are into this, then we should invest nothing. So, what's a girl to do but keep on keeping on.
Not like he keeps up with this blog, but...
My dearest Kelly, thank you for being my best friend, biggest fan, shoulder to cry on, sharer of fart jokes, and biggest love of my life. I don't know how I'm going to get through this without you around.
In grieving love's loss, I'm reminding myself of the intention I set at the new year: Joyful Surrender. It's been coming in very handy for everything life's thrown my way this year innit.
Through all this, I still believe in "love conquers all". Maybe one day, but not today. Silly me.