I'm teaching my first official group class... TONIGHT!
Yeah, it was supposed to have been right after Christmas, so it would've given me more time to get less freaked out. But since I've been helping Uli adjust her Monday and Wednesday evening Ashtanga led classes, she suggested we swop roles and I teach tonight's class while she adjusts. She was getting bored of me having all the fun adjusting!
I thought about it yesterday and it seemed like a good idea - having her there to give me feedback later would be an invaluable experience, so I said "OK, let's do this". And then I woke up in the middle of the night last night while reciting my "script" for teaching sun salutations in my dreams. I was tossing and turning in bed for 2 hours while I went over the entire Ashtanga primary series from the technique of each pose, to the variations (in case beginners decide to show up to class), down to the benefits and cautions of the poses. My head was gonna explode from all the info, and my body was melting from the stress, and the African summer heat in the middle of the night didn't help.
Finally, reading a few chapters of Iyengar's 'Light on Life' helped me take my mind off the stress - I know I'm making it bigger in my head than it actually is... I know I'll be fine I just have to get over my nerves. Class starts in 5 hours. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!