Our lives were moving in 2 different directions.
But I would've given it all up if I'd had a stronger commitment from him.
So after 5 beautiful years in 3 different countries together, we find ourselves apart.
I have no idea if what I'm doing is the bravest or stupidest thing I've ever done for ME. But... As a wise friend said: If we're not living in the moment and investing everything we are into this, then we should invest nothing. So, what's a girl to do but keep on keeping on.
Not like he keeps up with this blog, but...
My dearest Kelly, thank you for being my best friend, biggest fan, shoulder to cry on, sharer of fart jokes, and biggest love of my life. I don't know how I'm going to get through this without you around.
In grieving love's loss, I'm reminding myself of the intention I set at the new year: Joyful Surrender. It's been coming in very handy for everything life's thrown my way this year innit.
Through all this, I still believe in "love conquers all". Maybe one day, but not today. Silly me.
Oh no! I'm sorry :-( Virtual hugs from London.
ReplyDeleteOh! I had wondered, given that your work was keeping you in another part of the world.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear your news. Who knows? If it's meant to work out, then it will. If not, then it's time to move on, but not too swiftly, right?
Everyone needs time for their hearts to process loss and sadness.
The love that conquers all is not so much about whether we get a "happy ever after" or not, but how well we love and respect ourselves first and foremost, and then others around us. Including those we know and those that we might only ever pass in the street.
But I'm sure there are more good things and good people coming your way. Take care!
Aw, J, I'm so sorry to hear about this. A tough change to cope with when you're so far from home too! I hope your practice offers a refuge as you work through this. Be well! *hugs*
ReplyDeleteDear J
ReplyDeleteactually that brings me tears. sorry.
{{hugs}}
Arturo
oh Jamie! I'm so sorry to hear about this. I am sending you positive energy. {hugs} Lilli
ReplyDeleteAwww, Jaime, I'm sorry. Even if it's the best decision in the world, it's a hard one. Good for you for having a open mind about it. Why not seek total happiness- it's what everyone deserves. Takes guts to actually take the steps to find it sometimes.
ReplyDeleteYou're a gorgeous, smart, hilarious person- you really do deserve the best. Sorry if that's all cheesy, I mean it!
Sending you hugs and support from here!
ReplyDeleteYou sound so brave. Giving something up like that is. But I agree with people when they say that you deserve the best. You might find my last blog about 'attachment' interesting..especially, this quote "Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose" -YODA!
ReplyDelete:) x
Take care of you x
ReplyDeleteThank you, cybershala mates. It feels more and more like the right decision, especially if our priorities are in different places at the moment. It's sad coz everything else about the relationship works so well. But ultimately, I need to do what's right for ME. Appreciate you guys' support. :)
ReplyDeleteHugs back to every one of you. xxx
Ohhhh.... not sure what to say. I's really sorry to hear this, but glad to hear you sounding so balanced about it? I guess it will simplify your life a little.. Big hug xx
ReplyDeleteso sorry to hear this. I know how painful a break-up is, even if it seemed inevitable.
ReplyDeleteAnd keep on believing in love conquering all - it does and it will, though sometimes not in the way we think it will!
So so sorry to read this. You are spot on about making the right decision for yourself. Unfortunately, what's "right" for your situation isn't always easy, but the discomfort will pass as it always does. Sending hugs and support from here!
ReplyDeleteJamie,
ReplyDeleteSo sorry, but I know everything will work out. Long distance takes its toll.
Hope the best of your todays are the worst of your tomorrows.